Getting There, Wherever that is!
Since coming out of hospital there have been lots of good days, lots of bad days, and lots of days that were just OK. Thankfully the bad days are a lot less now. I am still on a fair bit of...
View ArticleDay 9 - I'm Tired
Alcohol is an addictive depressant drug, it just doesn’t say it on the tin.Why do we drink when it is so bad for us? Why do we continue to use unhealthy coping mechanisms? I realise that sometimes we...
View ArticleBuying Non-Alcoholic Beverages
So my mind has been on what to have instead of the usual drinks in the evening. I have sparkling water most nights, but I have been wandering what to have in place of drinks especially at the weekend,...
View ArticleWhat to name my demon?
A lot of different people recommend naming your inner demon, you know the one that encourages you to drink, and happily pushes an agenda when you try and be good. The one that says tonight will be...
View Article13 Days - Weekend No.2
This weekend I have stocked up on alcohol free beer. Yum! It tastes the same, and I am loving the alcohol free strawberry and Lime cider, and the alcohol free gin, which tastes just like gin!!!! Who...
View ArticleDay 17
It is day 17, and so far it has been OK. I am really tired though, but I am getting so much more sleep than I was when I was drinking and smoking! Part of it is that I used to stay up to drink, and...
View ArticleWhich day is it Again???
Which day is it Again??? So, for a second there I couldn’t remember what day I was on being drink free. I shocked myself, I thought I would be clock watching all the time, turns out a few days went...
View ArticleHealing from an abusive past.
Emotional pain is a b*tch. What does it mean to heal from the past? How do you know when you have healed? Do you ever truly heal from the past? How will I know when I am better? All these are...
View Article42 Days - Nearly Slipped Up
I have been really struggling with writing my blog this month. I know what I want to say, but putting it down has just felt wrong. It has been a strange and sometimes stressful few weeks. This past...
View ArticleFirst Test - Day 55
So last night was my first test, having people over and them drinking while I was not! I think having the non-alcoholic gin in the house helped me, it is a nice treat to have a nice drink in the...
View ArticleTrying Times - Day 57
Being alcohol free, taking your meds at the right times and in the right doses, staying off all forms of self-medication is really hard work.I have two injuries at the moment that I am carrying and two...
View ArticleMy First Email - YAY
I got an amazing email this morning that really made my day, so thank you so much. I have been feeling a bit low and uninspired for the last few weeks, and your email made me feel all warm and fuzzy,...
View ArticleCoping, not Coping Ramblings
Sometimes you just have to find a quiet place and cry your eyes out, or you need to do some shouting therapy. I think I need to do some shouting therapy and then have a good cry. I have been on the...
View Article85 Days
I never thought when I started this journey that I could make it to 85 days. I have even become comfortable at home with my husband having beers in the fridge. He is not like me, he can leave them in...
View ArticleOver 100 Days - Wow, I almost can't believe it.
I had great plans to celebrate 100 days of no drinking, instead I spent the night running to the loo and throwing up with a vomiting bug, and have been in bed for two days with fevers and chills. The...
View ArticleNew Goal - 1 Yr
Well it's been 113 days and I have finally committed to staying sober for the full year! It took me awhile to commit because I wasn't sure what I wanted to do. I knew I had to make another goal...
View ArticleSpoil Yourself
So I have decided to do a year without alcohol. A year sounds SO LONG, I know it isn't that long, but to keep me motivated I decided to set myself small targets. So I recently purchased a charm...
View Article148 Days
Well I haven't written in a long time, I went through a bit of a struggle, not so much with drinking, but with low moods, and just generally struggling with anxiety and emotional pain. I have realised...
View Article5 Months {152 days}
My husband has been away all week in the States for work. I was in the garage yesterday and I had serious de ja vous, normally when he is away I drink a bit more than when he is here, mainly because I...
View Article158 Days
A year sounds so long, 365 days even longer. I am still about 20 days off of half a year, 6 months of no drinking. I feel amazing, love the fact that my ankles have stopped swelling, no hangovers,...
View ArticleShame, the unspoken feeling that we all have over different things
We all suffer with shame at one point or another, differing degrees and differing circumstances, but we all know the feeling of shame, and what it feels like to suffer it. Why then is it such a taboo...
View ArticleReliving Painful Memories
Wow, it is nearly 3 years since my Dad passed away, I can't believe it! How does time march on so relentlessly, without regard for suffering or joyous occasions. My emotional pain has been really high...
View ArticleTough Week
Ugh what a week, I was feeling ok at the start of the week, but by Wednesday I was feeling so deflated, flat and low - and this feeling has lasted all week. I know we can't always be living on a high...
View ArticleScraping my Knees from my Fall and Trying Again, with a different approach!
Well last year my posts stopped around July time. It was my wedding anniversary in July and I decided that I'd be able to have a few drinks with my husband for our anniversary and then I'd stop again...
View ArticleStay At Home Mom Turned Teacher because of COVID-19
We live in Ireland, and the kids were send home from school on Thursday 12th March, they had enough work for Friday, and the week ahead, and the rest would be provided on an ongoing basis. My son came...
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